Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Do you ever go back and read your old journals?

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I DID NOT SAY DIARIES. THERE IS A DIFFERENCE. DIARIES ARE FILLED WITH "BAH. THOMAS IS POOPCAKE. WHY DOESN'T HE NOTICE ME. BLAH BLAH BLAH." A JOURNAL IS WHERE YOU WRITE ABOUT REAL THINGS THAT MATTER, AND WHAT YOU ARE LEARNING AND DISCOVERING IN YOUR LIFE.
*unpause*

Cause I do. And let me just say, I feel really dumb, when I come across something that I learned and realize I have completely erased the entire concept from my memory. It's like, come on Jess! We have been through this before. You're asking all the same questions again that you already figured the answers out to.

Does this ever happen to you? Yes? No?

P.S. I have old "diaries" also. HA. Those are just down right embarrassing to read sometimes. I have "crushed" on the LAMEST guys. just saying. I mean, its bad, I'm pretty sure one of them has an almost unibrow. OH. Ha. funny story. Once, I walked in on one of the guys I used to have a major thing for while he was violently making out with his girlfriend.. talk about awkward.

Is it bad to fall for a guy who is taken? I seem to do that...A LOT. o well. I can't help it.

^^ I think I got off topic. But...I'm not sure, because I don't know if I really had a topic to begin with.

SPEAKING OF BOYS. Where have all the men in this world gone to? Seriously, I know absolutely no guys who are "crush" worthy at the current moment. Where is this cave they're all hiding out in? I need to find it!!

O hey, I just want to apologize for the unnecessary dramaticness I added into my last post. I was in a mood. Get over it.

I feel like I talk about pee to often. Literally. There are two subjects I don't go a day without talking about. Men && Pee. RIDICULOUS.

okay well. This post is going nowhere. THATS ALL FOLKS.

bye!!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

let go. and let God.

Last Friday.

  • wake up
  • go to school
  • districts for choir
  • dinner with amazing people
  • back to districts to watch daniel
  • driving home

**BAM**

wrecked.

SCARED.


I was behind my friends mom. We were driving the speed limit. Not over, not under. I was a fair distance behind her. There was a good 1.5 cars length, if not more, between us. We were driving by Abundant Life. In case you don't know, they have extended parking across the street from the church. For safety reasons, they have crossing guards.

At night, the road is very poorly lit. All of a sudden. I see a man in the street in a bright orange vest with a flash light. My friends mom slams on her breaks to avoid hitting him. I do the same, but there was no way to stop in time.

I rear ended one of my best friends moms. HOW SUPER EMBARRASSING IS THAT? o well. could have been someone who would have been super pissed at me and started cussing me out.

Everything else seems a blur. I remember getting in Marta's van. and moving over to the parking lot. Someone also moved my car. We sat there, waiting for the police.

crying.

praying.

When the police got there, he asked all the basic information. I got my insurance card out.

3/24

it's the 25th.
Expired.

My parents were on their way by this point. I called to tell them the bad news. "I renewed it, the card is at home" my mom tells me. relief rushed through me.

The rest of the story is boring. Well except the fact that, I almost got a ride to the hospital in a big yellow ambulance. BBBUUTTT no worries, I didn't.

I now have a ticket, court date, broken car, drivers ed class I have to attend, head neck and back pain, and an order from my doctor not to attend dance for at least a week.

A lot has been taken away from me lately. All these things I thought I needed to bring me joy. Things I thought, I couldn't be happy without. Things I depended on to keep me afloat.

Now I realize, all I ever need is God. So here goes, taking that leap of faith (for the billionth time) and putting all my trust in Him. Which is not an easy thing for me, or anyone I suppose.




Monday, March 21, 2011

Currently, I'm sitting in class, waiting for school to begin. I decided to see if this mobile blogging thing actually works. So uh, that's about it!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Annie.

Ahhcakes. Guess what?!
I am in Annie with CYT.
I am so excited 1. because I didn't do CYT all winter and I thought I was going to murder a cat if I didn't do another show STAT. and b. because I got the part I wanted. I am Lily St. Regis. No one knows who that is, which I think is lame because you should just know these things. I don't feel like I need to explain this to you guys cause I am pretty sure only theatre nerds read my blog, BUT just incase I have a stalker, Lily is Rooster's girlfriend. If you don't know who Rooster is, well uh. Google it.

Hm, I really feel the need to blog about two things, but they shouldn't be posted on the internet I don't think. so ya. Just know that I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW SOMETHING. but I can't post it here because certain people would beat down my door with torches and those hay fork stick things.

This week was SPRING BREAK. It was basically one of the best weeks I have had in a LONNNGGG time. My friend natalie came and lived with me for awhile and it was super fun. On thursday, it was 83 outside. (I used to know how to do the degrees symbol on the computer. but I forgot. sad face.)

I made some super awesome pants. (p.s. that is a link to a pic. click and see my awesomeness.) and also a shirt (also a link)

Ya dude.

I watched HOT CHICK. Funniest. movie. ever. watch it!!

While Natalie was in town, we went to this place with a studio they let will let you dance in when there aren't classes going on. She taught me a dance she knew. I'm a bit iffy at it, but she rocked it! here it is. p.s it's sideways...sorry. I don't know how to fix it.


and yep that about sums it up for now.

see ya!



Tuesday, March 15, 2011

We Can Dance Around the Clouds Up Here.

Hello World.

Today, I had a dentist appointment. Gross. BUT, when I got home, my phone rang! I didn't recognize the number and I almost didn't pick up in fear that it would be some foreign man trying to sell me life insurance or something of that sort. I was brave and faced my fears though and answered the phone. OHEMGEE. It was my teen staff interview. After a semi-long (okay it was only like 8 minutes) interview, We decided (we being me and Sam) that the kitchen was the best fit for me. Dishes for week one and cook side for week two. CAN I JUST SAY I AM SO EXCITED?? My friend Haley doesn't like kitchen very much apparently, but I had a secret desire to be on that...team? so ya. Happy Day.


O YA AND ITS SPRING BREAK AND I AM HAVING THE BEST WEEK EVER AND ITS ONLY TUESDAY WOOOOO. :)